SRS: T-19 days
Less than 3 weeks, eek.
I confessed to my crush half an hour ago. She said that she's more towards men (with "so don't waste your time on me") but values our friendship. Oh well. Kinda expected though but I wanted to get it out of the way that I don't get too deep emotions towards her, even though I would like to cry right now, because of the feeling of loss. But! I did manage to clean up my apartment on monday thanks to the crush energy and for seeing people on every day last week.
Migraines have done comeback. That's really annoying as I thought I got rid of them already. Apparently I got quite a reserve of the hormones under my skin and it's finally running low enough that my migraine is acting. I'm also feeling even more exhausted than what I was, today I tried to take a nap, but couldn't get any sleep. Enjoyed the warmth of my bed for couple of hours nevertheless. Even the energy I had mentally has been exhausted now, maybe because negating the physical exhaustion requires so much effort mentally, to even do my work.
The sleeping pills has been ..interesting experience. The package leaflet and all my friends to whom I told about the pills said that DON'T MIX with alcohol. So, I haven't used them every night but on quite many nights during the last week. With them, I usually get asleep within half an hour but one night it took me 4 hours π Even my occupational physician was astonished, as I had check-up with her on tuesday. But without migraine, I have slept much better than I have had before so something is clearly out of ordinary.
Bit over a week work left. I agreed with my doc that I will go to office every day during this time as you can reserve office days, if there isn't too many people there. Limit was 20 or 30 IIRC, usually in the reservation table there's like 15 people or less per day. So, I was at the office today and it felt strange to sit alone. But it was easier to do work than what it is at home as the environment is different. I still have two projects to complete before the leave...
That's pretty much all for now, more will follow.
'Til next time~ π