SRS: T-108 Hours

 5 days or more exactly ~108 hours, oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh



It's really starting to hit me that the surgery is very, very soon. I have started to lighten up my diet and to get ready for the life after by buying things they mentioned in the letter. So, now I have non-woven swabs, skin oil, genital area soap and small hand mirror. I'm still lacking ring pillow, which I will go to buy tomorrow. 

I cancelled my participation to one IRL game session on saturday as I realized I'm going to go to someone's home, who has kids. I don't want to get even flu right now. And as most of my immunity comes from the vitamins and supplements, which I had to left out because of the surgery, I don't want to play with it. Which is why I'm going everywhere while wearing mask. I didn't care too much about the mask before, just kept a safe distance, but now I'm doing both.

I went to my hairdresser day before yesterday. She is magician. Purple and pink hair with curls, my hair looks so damn good after she has done her magics. And now I want to buy straightening iron as well and learn to do those awesome curls she did to me. I have natural curls and I love those, but they are so hard to get and especially stay. It doesn't require more than showing comb to my hair and it straightens down. It's frustrating. And curls really suit me!

I was actually surprised when I posted pic of my new hair to Instagram. First, my hairdresser and the salon shared my post in stories, which was flattering (with text "Client's wonderfully colourful hair 😍", in finnish). But what surprised me even more was that B liked the picture. There has been half year complete radio silence from her side without any other sign of existence than reading the couple of things I have sent to her (happy birthday and informing her about my surgery). Maybe she wants to be my friend again, which would be wonderful. I don't want to lose her from my life even if we won't be couple ever again. We share too many interests.

I have to be really careful that I don't blow that pink bubble around me again. I think I have managed to not to do that, but I have to stay ever vigilant. To concentrate to the surgery and recovery. Though, there's three people I want to see visiting me in the hospital. One of my best friends and he's partner (they live in Helsinki, which is why I see them too rarely), and B. Everyone else is just added bonus. And because of covid, they might prohibit visiting without appointment and even then only for the closest people of the patient. Well, I will hear the case on monday. Video calls are invented after all, so people can chat with me anyway.



I forgot to mention here the time of the surgery. It's stupid early, 6:45 in the morning and I have to be in the hospital at 6:00 at the latest. Well, the surgery is really long one so I kind of understand that. But also means that I won't be sleeping much in the night before the surgery 😅. But, this is all for now, more will follow~

'Til next time~ 💜

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