SRS: T-13 days

 OK, feeling much better than on sunday.


Actually much better. I have seen people every day, done work like I should have, not felt that miserable and even my face isn't feeling super greasy anymore. It still feels greasy and I got acne but it's only like 1cm thick, not 10cm. I also got some weird hunger. I'm hungry all the time. I have eaten like a freaking horse. I gathered weight thanks to that.

Even though I have felt much better during these couple of days, I still haven't got enough energy to actually prepare for the surgery in any other aspect. Like, buying the inflatable sitting ring I should (pressure from both sides is really bad and that mitigates it) or dig out the papers they sent me 1.5 years ago to check what else I should take in account. It's actually surprising that nothing about that is in the most recent bundle. Maybe they assume I have the old letter still somewhere.

I have two days of work left before my two month long leave and I still have tons of work left 😂 Halp! But, well, those tasks are actually that kind that other people can do those, I just have all the strings in my hand right now so it would take more time for some other to jump into it. I might even do some work on saturday, depends on what I manage to do on friday as someone experienced in data center is required to install some hardware before monday, which will arrive on friday. "\:D/" But I like that work the most, even when I don't have enough muscles to do it as well as I did before.



I'm going to visit my hairdresser next tuesday and go to visit my relatives on next wednesday as I want to get those out of the way before panicking about the surgery too much. I'm actually quite calm about it already, for some reason, just waiting it to happen. Though I almost got mild panic attack when my friends talked about other surgery one of them was participating (he is anesthesia nurse), so, maybe the panic will raise it's head eventually. But I don't worry about it right now, I want to keep my head together until that by seeing people every day. Which might be hard next week, which is why I'm not going to see my relatives on the same day I go to hairdresser. It's also "autumn holiday" week in schools here, so my theatre group doesn't have rehearsals.


Yeah, that's about it this time, I will write more later~

'Til next time~ 💜

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