SRS: 3 month checkup

 Checkup time again~


This time it was just surgeon and two random nurses, of which one was student most likely, considering how she looked my pussy with interest. Everything has healed well, the tactile feel isn't there yet but I have got some feeling of pain, so it's coming back eventually. AFAIK the pain and feel of cold are the first ones as those are the finest nerves. I'm confident that it will be fine, it will just take more time. But how much, that's still unknown. The surgeon said that usually everything will be pretty much normalised and head has adjusted in about one year.

My clitoris is super sensitive nowadays. Anything more than very light touch starts to hurt right away and I don't have any erogenous feel yet. I was able to get the orgasms, like I wrote previously but that's outright impossible to achieve now as it would require more delicacy than I'm able to handle. Vibrator is way too much. 

My sleep has stabilised to midnight - 8:00 now. That's really nice as it makes working much easier, less forcing myself awake. I'm also waking up refreshed, that hasn't gone away, which is really good. I wonder what my occupational physician will say about that, she will most likely be amused. 😂

Otherwise my life has been good, I feel happy, I can concentrate to work better, I don't get exhausted right away. That still cannot be seen from my apartment but the amount of trash on top of my kitchen table starts to annoy me, which is a good sign. Body is up to speed with hormones again 💜

I'm also feeling very woman, which I feel being really important. I have also low-key reminded my brother about that. For some reason it seems really hard for him to adjust. At least he isn't deadnaming me that much anymore. -_- Well, hopefully some day.


My next checkup will be one year checkup, which will happen in the end of october, unless I contact them that hey, I have a problem. But considering how I have healed, I doubt that. It's one phone call away anyway if I need it.


My voyage is very far from where I started. I have done almost complete metamorphosis, there isn't much left of the old me. The actual process is almost ready as well, rest of the healing is only thing lacking. That is so huge thing. I have survived, even while the journey hasn't been the easiest one, far from it actually. I hadn't have any one pillar helping me survive, but forest of small sticks, each giving me more or less support for this journey. I sincerely hope that I haven't done any damage to any of those, or at least as little as possible. Absolutely nothing would have had prepared me for this. Even the "it will be rough ride" is understatement. It's almost complete metamorphosis, which is huge burden for mind, when the creature isn't supposed to go through one. But, it has lead to happier life, it has been worth every second. But, as I really don't have much to write about, it will be very sparse. I'm planning to write comprehensive post about the whole SRS episode, but otherwise I really don't have much to write about anymore. This is the new normal. 

'Til next time~ 💜💜💜

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