SRS: Day after surgery

 Alright, brains funtions better now.



So, the surgery went well and the surgeon came to see me briefly in the morning. She also said that "there was enough material to work with" 😂 Well, better for me as it hopefully means that I don't need to stretch it to be able to use toys 💜

They put epidural for me, which is really interesting. It blocks feelings of cold and pain but not sensation. So, now when other medication has started to wear out, I start to feel other things. During the last hour my clit has itched a bit. Or something around there. It's really interesting! It's also starting to sink in that I don't have penis. That I really have pussy. The sensations are still all over the place as body is still figuring out what the heck is happening, how the tissues are now. Though, it's only second day after the surgery so it will take some time.

I have ~absolute movement restriction until monday, I may move tiny bit in the bed, but very little. I need to keep my legs apart as there's quite a much cloth to absorb the blood which will seep and to allow the recovery as well as possible. They also noticed that as I have dried out a bit so they are dropping some water into cannula. Or the medical saltwater solution thingy.

My back has been really sore, first night was bit annoying as I was able to sleep one hour at a time and it took a while to get asleep again. It's better now when it has gotten more used to the bed, which has some super futuristic mattress. It's apparently some zero pressure thingy, which adjusts all the time, so it lives it's own life under me. Feels interesting 😂 They also put some pressure "shoes" to my feet, to prevent venous thrombosis as I will be staying still in the bed for a good while after all. And even breathing practice thingy so my oxygen uptake doesn't get lower. That hasn't ever been problem for me though, I think the reason why my oxygen saturation is only 96% is that my nose reacts to the dry air here.

I'm feeling rather fine anyway and it has been really nice to actually eat sumething, even in liquid form. At least those has been rather good! And all the staff here is super nice. I really like being here now.

I think I will write more when my condition gets bit better, so, stay tuned!


'Til next time~ 💜

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