SRS: 2 months after surgery
Check-up time again~
I planned to write once or twice in between the two visits but .. well, I didn't. Today gave some great news though, it has healed really well so all the restrictions I had left were lifted. I can go to sauna for example! ✨ I kinda started to miss it already. I might go as soon as today~
Dilatation. I bought two dilators from kaalimato right after last visit and they were super fast, I got the package the very next day! I bought one with two different sizes, 2.5cm diameter and 3.5cm diameter. I have mostly used the bigger one as the smaller started to feel quite small very quickly. My depth is about 10 cm currently, which is not that much imo, though definitely enough to have sex. People with bigger equipment just needs to be careful to not ram too deep.
The dilatation itself is somewhat boring as my tactile feel is so lacking still. It's getting better in the deep end of the vagina, so I can actually feel a bit what I'm poking. Minimum time to dilatate is 10 minutes, I have done like 15-30 min sessions, closer to 15 than 30 but around that time anyway. And apparently I have done great job to help surgeons work to become even better as it should be elastic etc and it's exactly like it should! I can take two fingers easily and fingers can be separated quite a much inside me. I have a feeling that the depth is only thing I'm not super happy yet. But dilatation will help that as well. I have some toys in mind which are bit too big yet. Vagina is the part which has healed the best as well. Waiting for the tactile feel to return, which will take anything from 3 to 6 months, according to the specialist nurse. The written information they gave me previously stated differently but whatever, as long as it comes back, I don't really care as long as it is less than a year. Though the longer it takes, the harder it will be for my head as I'm in desperate need of oxytocin already.. π
My sick leave ended as well, I was at work the whole last week and monday & tuesday this week. Now I'm on winter vacation because doing work is boring πππ. The sad part is that I lost 2 weeks salary because of the sick leave, but I just found out that I will get it back from Kela π. That was christmas present already.
So, everything is proceeding smoothly π, even the hormones are kicking in for real again, my skin is starting to be as soft as it used to be already, the hot flashes are no more and I'm noticing that it has had bigger effect to my brain that I first anticipated. The depression is also going away already, which I have gotten every time estrogen dosage has changed. World starts to be brighter place again π.
My next appointment is in bit over one month, 3rd of February. That will be the follow-up examination by surgeon, I assume that the visits in HUS will get even more sparse after that. I will continue to write randomly to here as well, though I can't promise anything. It might be quite rarely as not much is happening anymore. We'll see π
'Til next time~ π