Way of speaking

There is one thing which has bugged me for a long time already. Why so many people take my way of speaking as flirting? Is it that I speak bit like women speak, which is very natural to me so cis-woman (and sometimes -men as well) take it as flirt, when I mean it as honest compliment or normal talk. Part of the problem is that I have kind of sixth sense of sensing people's emotions. I can differentiate very subtle changes in behaviour and kind of know the emotion behind it. That might be something what I have learned during the years as performing different (often very strong) emotions is standard thing for actor, one of the first things you have to learn, to be exact. So I'm very conscious of them. There is times when I'm able to sense emotion through written text, but that is much harder.

There was case in Ropecon where I complimented one woman, who is also in the convention organizing scene, about her corset. As I have a thing for corsets, but who goth chick doesn't? But, when the situation was over and she fled, I thought again her reaction and she definitely took it as flirting or as a hit attempt. And I just wanted to compliment as it fitted her very well.

Another case which comes to my mind is kinda old already. It happened like 14 years ago, when I was in a summer camp with my first gf. We were together in one other girl's room and I was chatting with her while my gf was just listening. After chatting a while my gf began to be very jealous, grabbing my whole arm and being bitchy, and I was sensing some kind of flirting from other girl. The conversation wasn't even anything special, although I can't remember the details anymore. I just remember the situation and feelings of it.

Why this is happening? Is it just because my physical appearance is male currently? Will it be easier when I appear and sound like female? It causes just awkward situations like those two, as there is countless times it has happened. Those two are just most recent one and one I remember especially well. People who knows me and have talked with me more, talks normally with me. So it can only be my way of speaking. But I'd like to know why, as without knowing, I can't change anything. I can try but it is usually in the wrong direction as I'm guessing wrongly. Although I know that people who already know me can't say anything about how I speak as they have gotten used to it. Although, now when I think about this, some of it might be that I'm "a bit" attention whore... Which is caused by anxiety, of which I have suffered for something like 8 years already. There is excellent video about it in 9gag facebook page. Although fortunately my situation isn't that bad but I see myself in it anyway.

If there is someone in the readers, who can say something regarding this, I really appreciate it. I know that some of you are quite new friends of mine and some of you might not have gotten used to the way I speak. Just send me a message through instant messager of your preference.

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