Uncensored Tipsy Thoughts 4
Yet another week. Heart rate has been bit of challenge.
So, I raised spironolactone to 100mg on monday and left orloc away completely on thursday. I'm still feeling consequences of that. Especially today has been extremely interesting. I went to see a good friend and drank couple of ciders and she did some pizza and we talked about stuff. I didn't feel anything out of ordinary, other than I felt hot. Like after running for a while. Then I checked my heart rate. 115 bpm. Alright. And that went even further during the evening. It was consistently over 100, mostly around 110 and 120 while idling but when I stood up, it got around 140 or more. But, it doesn't feel bad. Other than that feeling of after running 100m as fast as you can. But, orloc is beta blocker so what you really expect, especially after eating it for two years. So, I will monitor myself for couple more days.
I have also drank some alcohol, which raises the heart rate even more. I'm guessing that it would have been under 100 bpm without it. But, that alcohol helped to cross that small threshold I'm still having. I practiced my voice with that friend. So, I positioned my voice box in my throat to the correct place, and it seems that it tooks minute or two to settle to the sweet spot. And I spoke. It was surprisingly easy, and my throat muscles didn't tire up that much. So, within yesterday and today, I have spoke for around 3 hours with feminine voice, which is bit too low still and holded my voice box in the correct spot for another 3 hours more. But I can hear the difference in voice. I don't know how much difference there is for other but the tone is definitely different. Much more feminine. I'm trying to speak with this voice next week at work and see how my voice will last. I think I should record my voice as I need to tune the pitch quite a much, it's way too low currently. But that is second step in this practice with this technique anyway.
And about the alcohol itself. Internet says that it's not good idea while eating spironolactone as it metabolizes in liver, hence, causing stress to it. But I notice as well that either my tolerance has gone up or the alcohol doesn't work like it has before. And I'm quite sure it's the tolerance as I have ..practiced bit too much lately *sips cider*. Although my consumption is still quite low and I can left it out for months without any problems if needed. I drink it because of the taste anyway, the alcohol just happens to have quite a big role in that taste.
My emotions haven't loosened much yet. I watched very emotional episode of anime today (Darling in the FranXX ep 13), and my eyes didn't even got wet. After watching it and thinking and longing for Certain Someone, I was able to squeeze one teardrop three times. Which was three drops more than before but still not enough. But I was able to force it out, so something has happened. Part of it might be that I really miss that Certain Someone. Well, I will see her soon enough. At least I hope so.
So, I raised spironolactone to 100mg on monday and left orloc away completely on thursday. I'm still feeling consequences of that. Especially today has been extremely interesting. I went to see a good friend and drank couple of ciders and she did some pizza and we talked about stuff. I didn't feel anything out of ordinary, other than I felt hot. Like after running for a while. Then I checked my heart rate. 115 bpm. Alright. And that went even further during the evening. It was consistently over 100, mostly around 110 and 120 while idling but when I stood up, it got around 140 or more. But, it doesn't feel bad. Other than that feeling of after running 100m as fast as you can. But, orloc is beta blocker so what you really expect, especially after eating it for two years. So, I will monitor myself for couple more days.
I have also drank some alcohol, which raises the heart rate even more. I'm guessing that it would have been under 100 bpm without it. But, that alcohol helped to cross that small threshold I'm still having. I practiced my voice with that friend. So, I positioned my voice box in my throat to the correct place, and it seems that it tooks minute or two to settle to the sweet spot. And I spoke. It was surprisingly easy, and my throat muscles didn't tire up that much. So, within yesterday and today, I have spoke for around 3 hours with feminine voice, which is bit too low still and holded my voice box in the correct spot for another 3 hours more. But I can hear the difference in voice. I don't know how much difference there is for other but the tone is definitely different. Much more feminine. I'm trying to speak with this voice next week at work and see how my voice will last. I think I should record my voice as I need to tune the pitch quite a much, it's way too low currently. But that is second step in this practice with this technique anyway.
And about the alcohol itself. Internet says that it's not good idea while eating spironolactone as it metabolizes in liver, hence, causing stress to it. But I notice as well that either my tolerance has gone up or the alcohol doesn't work like it has before. And I'm quite sure it's the tolerance as I have ..practiced bit too much lately *sips cider*. Although my consumption is still quite low and I can left it out for months without any problems if needed. I drink it because of the taste anyway, the alcohol just happens to have quite a big role in that taste.
My emotions haven't loosened much yet. I watched very emotional episode of anime today (Darling in the FranXX ep 13), and my eyes didn't even got wet. After watching it and thinking and longing for Certain Someone, I was able to squeeze one teardrop three times. Which was three drops more than before but still not enough. But I was able to force it out, so something has happened. Part of it might be that I really miss that Certain Someone. Well, I will see her soon enough. At least I hope so.