SRS: 38 days after surgery
Long time, no post. Not much has happened though.
I called to hormone clinic on monday, nurse called back on tuesday and endocrinologists called on wednesday. She said that it's fine to raise hormones back to full dosage, which I did yesterday. She also said that it's impossible to say if I need finasteride, there isn't any blood test they could do (I actually doubt that..), it's up to me if I feel like I need it. So, I just need to make a note how much I lose hair and if it starts to get up, then start finasteride again. The call was kind of ..useless, I'm not sure who the doctor actually was but the way she talked was "yeah, you didn't have anything more important to say?".
So, I had half dosage for a week and now full dosage again. The week was really annoying, the hot flashes got very intense and they still were quite constant. "Hey, this is the good stuff! But this is not enough, we want more! *throws tantrum*". Just the past ~30 hours I have had the full dosage now has been much lighter in that sense, I still have had couple of hot flashes but they are not as intensive and doesn't last long. So, getting much better, and I'm pretty sure those will leave out completely before monday. Finally in normal medication again and the amount of meds I need to take is so low. Literally cut in half. And even that will change later as migraine inhibitors needs some tuning now. I want to get rid of noritren and I think the other med is on bit high dosage. I don't have unnecessary shit messing up my body now, so I'm pretty sure the amount of meds needed is much lower.
I have noticed that my body has hard time figuring out feelings again when hormones started. There hasn't been mood swings but certainly more variety than what the gray mass was during hormonal pause. Anxiety wasn't one of the moods I was looking forward to, but like I have said before, even when I feel like shit, I feel good about being able to actually feel things. And I'm pretty sure things will open up even more.
Pussy is also healing in steady pace. Swelling is getting lower and everything feels better. The numbness is also starting to go away, which I can feel, when I'm sitting badly. It has also started to itch time to time. Sometimes I get random sting as well, which I really don't like, but fortunately those go away quite quickly. I have also taken some pics of it during the healing process and it's really visible from those that how much the swelling has gone down. I also took first pic where I open up the labia a bit and realised that hey, that's a clit x) Which has gotten really sensitive lately, it has the best tactile feel. Not very erogenous yet but it's only matter of time. I'm also looking forward for the next appointment with the specialist nurse in one week, I will be allowed to dilate!
Speaking of, I had understood incorrectly that part. It will be started only when the pussy is completely healed, so I can't break myself by masturbating or having sex. Which will happen 6 weeks after the surgery at the earliest. I have shut down my libido on purpose as it will be just self-torture. It's still there, as I'm lewd person, but I haven't had urges to masturbate. Though, I'm really looking forward to it, I want to get those mind-boggling orgasms again.
I'm not sure how soon I will write again but the next visit to the nurse will be one of the things I want to write about anyway.
'Til next time~ π