SRS: 3 weeks after surgery

 Alright, checkup - done! Everything is proceeding smoothly



There was little bit of hassle as the other specialist nurse is sick and the other one is super busy so they tuned the time one hour earlier. It was fine, I was planning to go lunch with one of my best friends (the same one who visited me in hospital) before the appointment but as the time was tuned, I went after. Was just fine though, 1pm isn't super late for lunch yet. We went to Muji, which is japanese ..thing? in Kamppi mall. There's restaurant and all kinds of goods, reminds me a bit of those convenience stores in mangas but fancier and the ingredients they had were very specific. But they had even furnitures! All kinds of goods from Japan. I really need to visit it properly at later date after payday. 

The checkup itself was rather interesting. I got on gynecological examination table (first time ever actually in that kind of gynecological examination position, pussy wide open 😂) and the nurse took initial look and then the surgeon came to see it as well, cleaned up quite a much of the necrosis out from there and it has healed quite well in this time. Vagina itself is really deep, it has been hard to clean up but it has healed flawlessly. They gave me speculum so I can clean it up by myself. I'm so going to measure myself with it! I have no idea how deep I am, just the literal gut feeling that quite. I want centimeters x) The clitoral hood is also clean now for the most part but some of the necrosis weren't loose yet, so they gave me some gel to help with that and some greasy swabs to keep it at skin and not going to pad. 

I'm going to have next checkup next week's thursday, and I should be allowed to start hormones again then 💜💜💜 I'm waiting so much as the hot flashes are so annoying and I have those daily nowadays. Well, bit over a week left and next appointment is on patch change day so if I get approval, I will apply the patch freaking immediately! But considering the speed of recovery and removal of stitches etc. today, I'm pretty sure everything is good in a week to start the hormones again. I know I still won't be allowed to have sex yet, I have to wait 3 long weeks for that, but the faster things happen, the better. Like I wrote just before the surgery, general state of health matters the most and apparently I was in pretty good state or something as the recovery has been so easy and swift. I have also tracked my food income and nutritions so I'm eating enough, targeting about 2000 kcal per day. I think I have managed to do that for the most part. Recovery asks for energy, and that really can be seen, I have lost weight even while eating more than what I would burn without the recovery.

Sitting starts to be possible with the ring pillow. I still get uncomfortable after a while but shifting position a bit every now helps a lot. You would need to do that anyway, I think I need to do it roughly 2-3 times as frequently as I normally would. Or, before. Overall it's starting to be easier to be, things start to normalise at least a bit. Putting clothes on isn't exhausting anymore and I'm generally more energetic. It also hit me on sunday that I don't have to hide anything with clothing anymore. So, long shirt (=covering half of ass) and leggings are very valid outfit. And looks really cute 💜. The amount of happiness is getting bigger and bigger every day and I absolutely love it. It feels so good to actually live my life 💜.

That should have been the most important things, more will follow!


'Til next time~ 💜

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