HRT: Tenth month
New year, another month. Looks like I forgot to write in two months so covering those as well now.
A lot has happened. Much of it has happened mentally and my life has been in quite a havoc. Like I wrote in last post, I'm now in relationship again. The relationship has helped me really much, as I can be very womanly. It has also helped with the bitchy side as I can be very soft with my partner. My partner is quite mentally strong as well, which helps. And the softness has really helped to discover and explore the feminine side of me. Helped me to get rid of the unnecessary roles and to change the base role closer to the core, or take the tint away from it.
Like I wrote previously (#58), I'm feeling like Mira and woman. I'm starting to love myself and my looks. I have gotten more confidence. As I was starting to feel back in the previous post, it really have started like I thought. The bud is already half open, embracing the sun. I feel now that pursuing CS was holding me back, so I'm happy I finally got my resolve and was able to move on. My partner actually passively helped a lot. By being able to get the attention and love, as well as giving love to someone, was what I really needed. And her husband (co-husband from now on) has helped as well in some way. Like I have said to both of them, they are the couple I needed to my life.
To my surprise, I got the endorsement from the doctor after the treatment conference but I also got the infertility certificate, even while I have used hormones only for 9 months! Now I only need the endorsement from the HYKS doctor. I haven't got invitation yet, so, it will take some time. But it is basically only legal formality, so I will get that endorsement eventually. And finally be able to progress into SRS queue. Partly related to that, I also got my official ID cards as well with my new name. Which I will need to do again after getting the other endorsement as I can fix the gender into the population information system. So, more money for the government. Oh well.
I have basically lived with my partner for the last week and a half. I'm still feeling bit bad that I somewhat forced her husband to sleep on the couch but as he would have done that mostly anyway, it's fine. At least both of them are telling me that. Winter vacation well spent with them, and educating myself by watching star wars at last. We have also started to talk about living together in own house and how to handle moneys. The fact they are married couple causes some minor problems with that, like we don't know if we can take the apartment loan to all of us or only for the them. And I feel it's unfair if I can get away from it too easily. But bank can answer to that for us. Hopefully it's possible as our combined income is quite significant, which means possibility for bigger loan. But talking about this means how serious we are about this triad.
I can't wait I can gather enough money to buy electric cello. As my co-husband is electric music composer, I might be able to give him some nice samples (like he doesn't have enough yet..) or melody played with actual instrument. I see so much opportunities and good things in many directions in this relationship of us that I can't even (pun intended).
My stress has gotten bit better thanks to vacation and my partner, so I will try to get more active here as well. 'Til next time!
A lot has happened. Much of it has happened mentally and my life has been in quite a havoc. Like I wrote in last post, I'm now in relationship again. The relationship has helped me really much, as I can be very womanly. It has also helped with the bitchy side as I can be very soft with my partner. My partner is quite mentally strong as well, which helps. And the softness has really helped to discover and explore the feminine side of me. Helped me to get rid of the unnecessary roles and to change the base role closer to the core, or take the tint away from it.
Like I wrote previously (#58), I'm feeling like Mira and woman. I'm starting to love myself and my looks. I have gotten more confidence. As I was starting to feel back in the previous post, it really have started like I thought. The bud is already half open, embracing the sun. I feel now that pursuing CS was holding me back, so I'm happy I finally got my resolve and was able to move on. My partner actually passively helped a lot. By being able to get the attention and love, as well as giving love to someone, was what I really needed. And her husband (co-husband from now on) has helped as well in some way. Like I have said to both of them, they are the couple I needed to my life.
To my surprise, I got the endorsement from the doctor after the treatment conference but I also got the infertility certificate, even while I have used hormones only for 9 months! Now I only need the endorsement from the HYKS doctor. I haven't got invitation yet, so, it will take some time. But it is basically only legal formality, so I will get that endorsement eventually. And finally be able to progress into SRS queue. Partly related to that, I also got my official ID cards as well with my new name. Which I will need to do again after getting the other endorsement as I can fix the gender into the population information system. So, more money for the government. Oh well.
I have basically lived with my partner for the last week and a half. I'm still feeling bit bad that I somewhat forced her husband to sleep on the couch but as he would have done that mostly anyway, it's fine. At least both of them are telling me that. Winter vacation well spent with them, and educating myself by watching star wars at last. We have also started to talk about living together in own house and how to handle moneys. The fact they are married couple causes some minor problems with that, like we don't know if we can take the apartment loan to all of us or only for the them. And I feel it's unfair if I can get away from it too easily. But bank can answer to that for us. Hopefully it's possible as our combined income is quite significant, which means possibility for bigger loan. But talking about this means how serious we are about this triad.
I can't wait I can gather enough money to buy electric cello. As my co-husband is electric music composer, I might be able to give him some nice samples (like he doesn't have enough yet..) or melody played with actual instrument. I see so much opportunities and good things in many directions in this relationship of us that I can't even (pun intended).
My stress has gotten bit better thanks to vacation and my partner, so I will try to get more active here as well. 'Til next time!