Wandering thoughts 8
Looks like I forgot to write a week ago. Oh well. Let's sum up the past two weeks then.
Last weeks monday, 30.4., was my new name day. I even marked that to my own calendar as it would take a while for me to remember it. It was rather dull day otherwise, I visited my parents but that was it. Rest of the week was just usual struggling through life. Not much happened other than work and sleep.
This weeks wednesday I was hit to the face with a laser again. It was third time. And it hurted even less than last time. It really starts to be bearable, although I hope I don't have to use all those 10 times. It still hurts anyway. But this time I got really small second degree burns, which included vesicles. They looked like pimples as they were so small! But, I used some basic cream to heal the burns so they healed pretty quickly, there isn't anything visible anymore. And next time will be after little over a month, in the end of June.
Yesterday was Popcult Day, in which our photography service was with the studio. It made me notice that yeah, I have lost muscles from elsewhere than hands and shoulders as well. After some 4 hours of standing, my muscles were sore and so weak that I was shaking. Not just lower back but feet and hands as well. Fortunately the optical stabilizer in my lens is good enough to filter that out and shutter time was also very short so nothing visible in the pics. Just made me realise how much has actually happened as I usually don't stand extended periods of time.
The burns also helped me note that my skin has changed. It has happened so sneakily that I didn't even notice it without the laser. It has gotten softer. It's appearance is pretty much unchanged, I think, and some places are unchanged still. But, little by little. Things are happening even when I'm not noticing them. And there are some things which I'm noticing very much. My nipples are extremely sensitive. Even normal touch hurts. But that should mean that my boobs are growing so even being annoying, it's a good thing. And I hope they will grow much.
Tomorrow will be interesting day. My estradot dosage will be raised to 75 micrograms. I wonder what kind of workday (and -week) I will have tomorrow, as patch change days has been typically those, when it's hard to concentrate and get things done and when I get hot waves (or flashes, but wave is more descriptive term as it is wave-like feeling which goes through the body, from toes to head or from head to toes). Would I get more of them or less? I hope less, they are annoying.
But, it is very late so off to sleep.
Last weeks monday, 30.4., was my new name day. I even marked that to my own calendar as it would take a while for me to remember it. It was rather dull day otherwise, I visited my parents but that was it. Rest of the week was just usual struggling through life. Not much happened other than work and sleep.
This weeks wednesday I was hit to the face with a laser again. It was third time. And it hurted even less than last time. It really starts to be bearable, although I hope I don't have to use all those 10 times. It still hurts anyway. But this time I got really small second degree burns, which included vesicles. They looked like pimples as they were so small! But, I used some basic cream to heal the burns so they healed pretty quickly, there isn't anything visible anymore. And next time will be after little over a month, in the end of June.
Yesterday was Popcult Day, in which our photography service was with the studio. It made me notice that yeah, I have lost muscles from elsewhere than hands and shoulders as well. After some 4 hours of standing, my muscles were sore and so weak that I was shaking. Not just lower back but feet and hands as well. Fortunately the optical stabilizer in my lens is good enough to filter that out and shutter time was also very short so nothing visible in the pics. Just made me realise how much has actually happened as I usually don't stand extended periods of time.
The burns also helped me note that my skin has changed. It has happened so sneakily that I didn't even notice it without the laser. It has gotten softer. It's appearance is pretty much unchanged, I think, and some places are unchanged still. But, little by little. Things are happening even when I'm not noticing them. And there are some things which I'm noticing very much. My nipples are extremely sensitive. Even normal touch hurts. But that should mean that my boobs are growing so even being annoying, it's a good thing. And I hope they will grow much.
Tomorrow will be interesting day. My estradot dosage will be raised to 75 micrograms. I wonder what kind of workday (and -week) I will have tomorrow, as patch change days has been typically those, when it's hard to concentrate and get things done and when I get hot waves (or flashes, but wave is more descriptive term as it is wave-like feeling which goes through the body, from toes to head or from head to toes). Would I get more of them or less? I hope less, they are annoying.
But, it is very late so off to sleep.