HRT: Third month
Third month went surprisingly slowly. Much slower than second. But a lot happened.
In the start of the month, I got quite a lot hot waves. More on patch change days and bit less day after, maybe some in other days as well. My body was signaling that it is time to ramp up the dosage. And time for that was in the middle of the month, on monday 14th of may. I got quite serious hot waves on that day and day after, but none after those. I wonder how long it will take to those appear again.
My boobs started to grow as well for real. On the week just before the time the dosage was increased, my nipples got really sensitive. To the point that the own weight of my boobs were enough that breathing hurted. That didn't last for long fortunately. Although my boobs have been more or less achy after it and still are. My bras started to feel ..loose as well, so I ordered 80B, which are perfect fit. Which also means I have to buy 80C soonish. And that is actually funny. Measuring with tape all size tables says 85A, except Change, which says 80C already, but feeling says 80B. Oh well.
I got hit to the face with the laser in this month too, which hurts less and less every time. Which is also bit bad thing. As more of the energy is absorbed by skin and not by hair, it caused second degree burns this time. That healed very fast though. My face has continued to reshape itself and starts to be quite close to what I would like to have it to be. Bit more fat to cheekbones and it will be purrrfect. I have also noticed that I lose even less hair than couple of months ago. So estrogen is helping with hair regrowth. Time will tell what my hair will look like in the end but at least it isn't complete disaster anymore. Also those baby hairs doesn't cover as much as longer hairs as they don't have that much volume yet.
Speaking of hair, I haven't noticed other changes in hair growth, other than it grows a lot slower. My arm hair is still very visible but like my leg hair has grown back extremely slowly compared what it used to grow. I hope those hairs will start to lose volume soon.
Other changes has happened as well. My skin has softened a bit more, or more completely. It isn't just face, arms and tummy. Bodily fluids have changed appearance or smell or both. Sweat was bit funny actually. I noticed it by noticing the smell of my clothes when I chose clean ones. It feels like I have tripped some threshold and so much is happening now. But that's how it goes in normal puberty as well. Body gets ready for changes and then they happen in quite fast pace. Although mine might go through faster than normal.
I have also practiced my voice the whole month. It starts to be quite easy and I can speak with it for a while already without taking a break. I'm planning to start second phase, so to correct pitch as well. When I have tried a bit, it feels easy. I just don't have any idea what would be good combination as moving the thing in the throat more back will do things to my voice as well, but doing so too much will make it thinner. So, how much back and how high should I go? I also have some idioting obsession to let Certain Someone to hear my final voice first. Like it really matters in the end. I have tried to speak with my practice voice in all occurrences. Like when talking to myself (although I don't do that much aloud) or saying hi to bus driver, short, couple of words long sentences, which I didn't bother to say or at least not with practice voice before. And the more hard one: to use that voice inside my head. It seems to be quite hard as I think so much. But that should happen over time when I talk aloud more with my new voice.
Those changes to my boobs and face as well as my practice voice has done wonders to my through-going. I'm starting to go through consistently even while speaking. It feels reassuring, confusing and good at the same time. As I don't feel so through-going yet. But I have lived in the woman's role for at least half a year already. Maybe longer, depending on what you count as woman's role. And it feels like home.
There is one thing I'm regretting in the process: Why I didn't start sooner.
In the start of the month, I got quite a lot hot waves. More on patch change days and bit less day after, maybe some in other days as well. My body was signaling that it is time to ramp up the dosage. And time for that was in the middle of the month, on monday 14th of may. I got quite serious hot waves on that day and day after, but none after those. I wonder how long it will take to those appear again.
My boobs started to grow as well for real. On the week just before the time the dosage was increased, my nipples got really sensitive. To the point that the own weight of my boobs were enough that breathing hurted. That didn't last for long fortunately. Although my boobs have been more or less achy after it and still are. My bras started to feel ..loose as well, so I ordered 80B, which are perfect fit. Which also means I have to buy 80C soonish. And that is actually funny. Measuring with tape all size tables says 85A, except Change, which says 80C already, but feeling says 80B. Oh well.
I got hit to the face with the laser in this month too, which hurts less and less every time. Which is also bit bad thing. As more of the energy is absorbed by skin and not by hair, it caused second degree burns this time. That healed very fast though. My face has continued to reshape itself and starts to be quite close to what I would like to have it to be. Bit more fat to cheekbones and it will be purrrfect. I have also noticed that I lose even less hair than couple of months ago. So estrogen is helping with hair regrowth. Time will tell what my hair will look like in the end but at least it isn't complete disaster anymore. Also those baby hairs doesn't cover as much as longer hairs as they don't have that much volume yet.
Speaking of hair, I haven't noticed other changes in hair growth, other than it grows a lot slower. My arm hair is still very visible but like my leg hair has grown back extremely slowly compared what it used to grow. I hope those hairs will start to lose volume soon.
Other changes has happened as well. My skin has softened a bit more, or more completely. It isn't just face, arms and tummy. Bodily fluids have changed appearance or smell or both. Sweat was bit funny actually. I noticed it by noticing the smell of my clothes when I chose clean ones. It feels like I have tripped some threshold and so much is happening now. But that's how it goes in normal puberty as well. Body gets ready for changes and then they happen in quite fast pace. Although mine might go through faster than normal.
I have also practiced my voice the whole month. It starts to be quite easy and I can speak with it for a while already without taking a break. I'm planning to start second phase, so to correct pitch as well. When I have tried a bit, it feels easy. I just don't have any idea what would be good combination as moving the thing in the throat more back will do things to my voice as well, but doing so too much will make it thinner. So, how much back and how high should I go? I also have some idioting obsession to let Certain Someone to hear my final voice first. Like it really matters in the end. I have tried to speak with my practice voice in all occurrences. Like when talking to myself (although I don't do that much aloud) or saying hi to bus driver, short, couple of words long sentences, which I didn't bother to say or at least not with practice voice before. And the more hard one: to use that voice inside my head. It seems to be quite hard as I think so much. But that should happen over time when I talk aloud more with my new voice.
Those changes to my boobs and face as well as my practice voice has done wonders to my through-going. I'm starting to go through consistently even while speaking. It feels reassuring, confusing and good at the same time. As I don't feel so through-going yet. But I have lived in the woman's role for at least half a year already. Maybe longer, depending on what you count as woman's role. And it feels like home.
There is one thing I'm regretting in the process: Why I didn't start sooner.