Uncensored Tipsy Thoughts 2
Today was new Tracon organizing crew kick-off and advent party. The kick-off was hosted at my workplace as our cafeteria was big enough for 60 people. After the kick-off was official advent party and some after-parties.
So, another year starting for Tracon. Today was the kick-off of the new organizing crew, called conitea, so everyone has seen each other hopefully at least once, as there was introduction of all the teams and I said "learn to know me as Siika as my first name is going to change in about half a year" as I didn't want to make too much of a point about my process but make it obvious anyway. There was also some informational presentations from how things should be done and about privacy and security (GDPR is closing in anyway) as well as way of working. I made small presentation about confluence and jira, without preparing and thinking what I should talk about. And I was last one before parties and we was behind of schedule so I tried to shrink it down. So I skipped most of the jira stuff as it is prone to change anyway.
The reason why the kick-off was hosted at my workplace was that party was hosted nearby and there was lots of parking space next to both. There wasn't much people from last year's crew who wasn't continuing but I had great time nevertheless. Couple of people even got my catch and asked what my new first name is gonna be. And one of the people in organizers is magician so he entertained us in the late night with different magic tricks. I was planning to leave quite soon and stay sober but I didn't this time. I was as late as you could be there and even continued to the afterparty.
There was only seven of us who continued to after parties, and we went to bar tentti. Their vanilla stout and drink called "pätkis" was really great. And I'm bit tight on budget, two of the other people was like "Yeah, just come with us, we will buy your drinks". I'm not used that someone will buy drinks to me so I was hesitant. I went there anyway and had really great time. I enjoyed myself more than I have in a long time. Although alcohol doesn't still have that euphoric edge, it felt good. And we talked about different stuff and had great time. Although I'm bit ashamed that everything I drank was bought by someone else, but that is something I have to get used to. I also saw one the old fellow student from TAMK when we got out from the bar, who I didn't even recognized but he said that I haven't changed at all.
I noticed that being drunk still gets more the feminine side out from me. I'm much softer and laugh even more easily than when I'm sober. That feels good. More what I really am. And that is kind of problem of me as I'm too conscious about my roles so I take them bit too strongly and change between them very rapidly. Although I'm not sure if anyone else than myself can notice that. But I do and it annoys me. It might help me to get myself out from those strict roles as even little drunkenness fades that strictness. And it is already causing little problems to myself as I would need to change the base of all my roles as the core itself isn't changing but how I present my core is. That is going to take some serious work.
Anyway, those two women who served me for whole evening, when it was time to go I escorted them to hotel (which was actually the nearest one) and demanded hugs from both of them and thanked from the night. And walked home so I would get my head bit more clear and to save the night payment of the bus. This night was a bliss.