Wandering thoughts 21
Another rather nice week.
Apart from monday, rest of the week has been rather nice. Not especially good days but clearly more sunny than rainy. I have also slept better than in ages, for some reason, which has been really nice. I even remember seeing dreams (though, not what happened in them), which is huge. I haven't had dreams in something like 15 years. So, slowly to the better.
I have kept myself busy as I just can't handle whole day without seeing people. It feels so weird. The better I get, the more extrovert I become. And I don't have friend network of an extrovert. Today I went to see my parents and felt down because I had "socializing hungover", but because I haven't seen people enough, not because I have seen them too much. Yesterday was Hypecon, so I saw people but as our studio wasn't advertised and it was bit hidden, not many people found it. And for the same reason I just looked people wandering around, which isn't enough for me. I want to interact with them.
Tomorrow I will go to see the specialist nurse in HYKS. I don't even know what to expect. I assume it will just some background check and interview or something, maybe some physical examination. And of course information about the process. I might do separate post about tomorrow, depends on what kind of meeting it is.
I also went to the blood test on friday and the result came available today. Everything was within the reference values, but hemoglobin and amount of white and red blood cells was much less within the reference values than what it has been previously. The doctor might call me tomorrow, but I doubt as only the trend is interesting and the values itself are "fine". I will start to eat more supplementary nutritions however.
In the next weekend will be Desucon, and there I will be able to really socialize with people. I want to take everything out from it! Although I do want to learn to restrict the attention whore inside be as it is trying to get through really hard. Or is it just part of being extrovert? Needs investigation.
Interesting becoming week. I might or might not be able to write next sunday, depends on when I'm back home. Anyway. Til' next time~
Apart from monday, rest of the week has been rather nice. Not especially good days but clearly more sunny than rainy. I have also slept better than in ages, for some reason, which has been really nice. I even remember seeing dreams (though, not what happened in them), which is huge. I haven't had dreams in something like 15 years. So, slowly to the better.
I have kept myself busy as I just can't handle whole day without seeing people. It feels so weird. The better I get, the more extrovert I become. And I don't have friend network of an extrovert. Today I went to see my parents and felt down because I had "socializing hungover", but because I haven't seen people enough, not because I have seen them too much. Yesterday was Hypecon, so I saw people but as our studio wasn't advertised and it was bit hidden, not many people found it. And for the same reason I just looked people wandering around, which isn't enough for me. I want to interact with them.
Tomorrow I will go to see the specialist nurse in HYKS. I don't even know what to expect. I assume it will just some background check and interview or something, maybe some physical examination. And of course information about the process. I might do separate post about tomorrow, depends on what kind of meeting it is.
I also went to the blood test on friday and the result came available today. Everything was within the reference values, but hemoglobin and amount of white and red blood cells was much less within the reference values than what it has been previously. The doctor might call me tomorrow, but I doubt as only the trend is interesting and the values itself are "fine". I will start to eat more supplementary nutritions however.
In the next weekend will be Desucon, and there I will be able to really socialize with people. I want to take everything out from it! Although I do want to learn to restrict the attention whore inside be as it is trying to get through really hard. Or is it just part of being extrovert? Needs investigation.
Interesting becoming week. I might or might not be able to write next sunday, depends on when I'm back home. Anyway. Til' next time~