Two years of the voyage
Two years and one week. Wow. It's been quite a voyage already and I still feel like it's just the very beginning.
I just have to start with most recent news, it actually happened today, or during the last night to be exact. I'm in a relationship again. I found this wonderful woman, with who I'm on exactly same wavelength and the waves are aligned perfectly. With who I'm more relaxed than with anyone else. Who makes me smile like a fool for the whole day. I had major crush on her, told about it to her on saturday, found out that it was mutual and today we decided that we aren't hallucinating and started to go out. She also happens to be goth as well 😂💜.
And why we thought we were hallucinating? It is actually really scary when you have known someone for just a couple of days, and you already are able to read each other's minds. But, the feeling we are having is just.. I can't even describe it. And both of us are loving it. Loving the fact how relaxed we are together.
I feel like I have awoken from a dream. I have a proper reason to wake up in the morning, take care of myself and my apartment. It's not just the permanent smile on my face, I feel more energetic. I'm not going to survive through this life anymore, I have reason to actually live and be lively. I was starting to gather around other bits and pieces to get enough smaller reasons to actually live my life but this alone is more than enough. Much, much more than enough.
Ok, that on a side, two hecking years. What the actual heck. The past year has went past so quickly that I haven't properly even noticed the speed. I'm not even able to write anything about it, partially thanks to the fact I'm in a cloud nine.
Well, there was Desucon and midsummer. There has been rather busy work weeks. Nothing special to say about those. There was the visit to HYKS. Which was mostly waste of money but, they saw what kind of person I am and I saw them. I got monologue about the process and risks, there wasn't much new information. And even the new information was just "oh, ok". Most what I got was the schedule and contact information. My SRS will be in the start of the next year (=around january and february), I can call them in october-november to get more accurate estimation.
I have also determined that yes, I'm very extrovert nowadays. I feel like it and the 16 personalities test gives me something like 80% extrovert or so. The bad thing about it is that I have a friend network of an introvert. I also have girlfriend now, though. So maybe the situation isn't that bad as I don't have to see multiple people during the day, it is enough that I leave my apartment and actually socialize with the people I see. So if my gf is too tired or otherwise busy, I can go to meet with someone else.
I'll leave it to that for a now, and start to write on a weekly basis again. I'm rather sure it won't be because of lack of energy, more like lack of time 😂. As I will be spending a lot of time with my girlfriend 💜.
'Til next time~.
I just have to start with most recent news, it actually happened today, or during the last night to be exact. I'm in a relationship again. I found this wonderful woman, with who I'm on exactly same wavelength and the waves are aligned perfectly. With who I'm more relaxed than with anyone else. Who makes me smile like a fool for the whole day. I had major crush on her, told about it to her on saturday, found out that it was mutual and today we decided that we aren't hallucinating and started to go out. She also happens to be goth as well 😂💜.
And why we thought we were hallucinating? It is actually really scary when you have known someone for just a couple of days, and you already are able to read each other's minds. But, the feeling we are having is just.. I can't even describe it. And both of us are loving it. Loving the fact how relaxed we are together.
I feel like I have awoken from a dream. I have a proper reason to wake up in the morning, take care of myself and my apartment. It's not just the permanent smile on my face, I feel more energetic. I'm not going to survive through this life anymore, I have reason to actually live and be lively. I was starting to gather around other bits and pieces to get enough smaller reasons to actually live my life but this alone is more than enough. Much, much more than enough.
Ok, that on a side, two hecking years. What the actual heck. The past year has went past so quickly that I haven't properly even noticed the speed. I'm not even able to write anything about it, partially thanks to the fact I'm in a cloud nine.
Well, there was Desucon and midsummer. There has been rather busy work weeks. Nothing special to say about those. There was the visit to HYKS. Which was mostly waste of money but, they saw what kind of person I am and I saw them. I got monologue about the process and risks, there wasn't much new information. And even the new information was just "oh, ok". Most what I got was the schedule and contact information. My SRS will be in the start of the next year (=around january and february), I can call them in october-november to get more accurate estimation.
I have also determined that yes, I'm very extrovert nowadays. I feel like it and the 16 personalities test gives me something like 80% extrovert or so. The bad thing about it is that I have a friend network of an introvert. I also have girlfriend now, though. So maybe the situation isn't that bad as I don't have to see multiple people during the day, it is enough that I leave my apartment and actually socialize with the people I see. So if my gf is too tired or otherwise busy, I can go to meet with someone else.
I'll leave it to that for a now, and start to write on a weekly basis again. I'm rather sure it won't be because of lack of energy, more like lack of time 😂. As I will be spending a lot of time with my girlfriend 💜.
'Til next time~.