Wandering Thoughts 12
Little bit of a pause again. Although this time I have excuse related to the process.
The risen dosage of estradot finally started my mood swings. The magnitude is rather small-ish but I started to have much more good days and bad days. Not much average days, nothing like year ago. But this is so much better, even with the bad days. It means I'm finally living, not just surviving. Although there have been bit more bad days lately for some reason, so it has been hard to start writing blog post. Some of it might be caused by exhaustion from work. 5 weeks of vacation did its thing and now my body is trying to adjust to normal daily life again.
The boots I linked in last post came and they fit! I also ordered wedge high heels, which I planned to be my daily shoes. With what I almost killed my feet, because I didn't realise how tight you have to tighten the laces so your feet get enough support for those crazy 10cm heels and not destroying your toes. And because of that, my big toes have big bruises under the nails now.. Well, I know now. And walking with them is surprisingly easy. At least for me it is. I might buy high-ish heel winter shoes as well as I fell in love with high heels 😅. Which means more money spending...
One other thing what the dosage rise did was boost of the boob growth. Or at least they have been very achy lately. Breathing feels uncomfy and laughing hurts really much. Well, it hurts now but hopefully they will get big eventually. At least they are still growing.
On this week's thursday, I will go to get hit to the face with the laser again. It will be fifth time. Not much is growing anymore, at least around lips. Jaw feels ..different. It's like the hair has regrown but as very thin and translucent as I can feel the hair but I can't see it with mirror. Well, the nurse will tell about the progress as it's bit hard to see under there even with mirror.
Next week will be the half-year checkup at hormone clinic as well. There should be blood tests before it, I suppose, but I haven't got any invitation. Maybe they will write referral for them after I go there. I wonder what kind of checkup it will be. Well, I will see soon enough.
I will try to write another post this week but we'll see..
The risen dosage of estradot finally started my mood swings. The magnitude is rather small-ish but I started to have much more good days and bad days. Not much average days, nothing like year ago. But this is so much better, even with the bad days. It means I'm finally living, not just surviving. Although there have been bit more bad days lately for some reason, so it has been hard to start writing blog post. Some of it might be caused by exhaustion from work. 5 weeks of vacation did its thing and now my body is trying to adjust to normal daily life again.
The boots I linked in last post came and they fit! I also ordered wedge high heels, which I planned to be my daily shoes. With what I almost killed my feet, because I didn't realise how tight you have to tighten the laces so your feet get enough support for those crazy 10cm heels and not destroying your toes. And because of that, my big toes have big bruises under the nails now.. Well, I know now. And walking with them is surprisingly easy. At least for me it is. I might buy high-ish heel winter shoes as well as I fell in love with high heels 😅. Which means more money spending...
One other thing what the dosage rise did was boost of the boob growth. Or at least they have been very achy lately. Breathing feels uncomfy and laughing hurts really much. Well, it hurts now but hopefully they will get big eventually. At least they are still growing.
On this week's thursday, I will go to get hit to the face with the laser again. It will be fifth time. Not much is growing anymore, at least around lips. Jaw feels ..different. It's like the hair has regrown but as very thin and translucent as I can feel the hair but I can't see it with mirror. Well, the nurse will tell about the progress as it's bit hard to see under there even with mirror.
Next week will be the half-year checkup at hormone clinic as well. There should be blood tests before it, I suppose, but I haven't got any invitation. Maybe they will write referral for them after I go there. I wonder what kind of checkup it will be. Well, I will see soon enough.
I will try to write another post this week but we'll see..