Invitations to treatments
Rest of the year went and new began. I have mainly waited for invitations to treatments and tried to lost some weight, while eating like a horse during holidays.
Not many hours after the medical record letter came first letter from hospital. Invitation to dermatology clinic came (actually about the same time I posted about medical record) to get my beard removed, followed by letter from phonotherapy clinic that they will invite me 16.6. at latest. And last night came the letter I waited most, the invitation to hormone and infertility clinic. I will go to dermatology clinic at 29.1., and to the hormone clinic at 27.2.
So, it's finally starting for real. It feels.. tensioned? I have waited for HRT for so many years that I haven't fully realized yet that this is really happening. It's a bit shame that I have to wait yet another two months and even then they most likely just check what kind of person I am, interview me and put me to blood tests before giving hormone and antiandrogen prescription. If it goes like that, I might ask that if they can check if I have mild androgen insensitivity syndrome. As my feeling is that I either have that or my testosterone production is less than normal. That would explain narrow shoulders and wide hips I have, my somewhat androgynous face, lack of chest hair and stunted beard, and oligozoospermia, erectile dysfunction and what else? Maybe that I even thinked about being trans-person. At least to what I understand from medical articles about how lack of testosterone affects to person. There is some affective effects which it can cause as well, like lack of initiative. Hey, I have that too! I might be expecting bit too much from estrogen what comes to my mental well-being, but it can't get much worse. Yeah, my depression can get worse, but other than that. I'm expecting that my initiative won't go worse, for example, but get better. It might take a while as estrogen needs to be ramped up first. And I know that this is google-diagnosing and might be totally wrong but I understand that I don't have competence so I'm just guessing and taking the guesses critically and asking doctors nicely what I have thought. Even though it doesn't exactly matter anymore if I have that AIS genome or not. AFAIK they will check my hormone levels anyway.
With the invitation to hormone clinic came some papers to fill (with electronic mail system, where you can receive snail mail electronically if sender can send the letters electronically. That was new, usually papers which needs filling come with snail mail :D), survey about my medication and sicknesses which runs in the family, like cancer, and if I want HRT and/or SRS. As well as consent to treatment. With quite hilarious list of things they must tell you before starting treatments as some are irreversible. Half of the list was the reason why I'm going there... But, law requires so they obey. And there was actually one thing I didn't know before! That eating too much estrogen it might get converted to testosterone and nullify (some of) the estrogen.
I'm also so glad that I finally can get rid of my beard. Too bad that they will not remove any other hair with laser there but at least that. I have to pay removal of other hair by myself. I can only hope that IPL will work efficiently enough, as laser in private sector is quite expensive.
And lastly about weight. I saw some facebook post about candy challenge ("I will not eat candy for as many days as this post gets likes") and as that isn't challenge for me as I don't eat candy anymore, I did post about losing weight. That I will lose 100g for every like the post gets. And it got 47, which is quarter of my friends, quite nice. But as that won't be any challenge and I'm planning to lose another 10kg still I thought that let's put that 4,7kg on top of that so my new goal is 65,7kg. I also got myself under 80kg finally, so I have lost bit over 27kg in bit less than a year now. Not too bad, that's half kilogram in a week on average if you calculate for whole year.
But now some sleep, workday tomorrow.
Not many hours after the medical record letter came first letter from hospital. Invitation to dermatology clinic came (actually about the same time I posted about medical record) to get my beard removed, followed by letter from phonotherapy clinic that they will invite me 16.6. at latest. And last night came the letter I waited most, the invitation to hormone and infertility clinic. I will go to dermatology clinic at 29.1., and to the hormone clinic at 27.2.
So, it's finally starting for real. It feels.. tensioned? I have waited for HRT for so many years that I haven't fully realized yet that this is really happening. It's a bit shame that I have to wait yet another two months and even then they most likely just check what kind of person I am, interview me and put me to blood tests before giving hormone and antiandrogen prescription. If it goes like that, I might ask that if they can check if I have mild androgen insensitivity syndrome. As my feeling is that I either have that or my testosterone production is less than normal. That would explain narrow shoulders and wide hips I have, my somewhat androgynous face, lack of chest hair and stunted beard, and oligozoospermia, erectile dysfunction and what else? Maybe that I even thinked about being trans-person. At least to what I understand from medical articles about how lack of testosterone affects to person. There is some affective effects which it can cause as well, like lack of initiative. Hey, I have that too! I might be expecting bit too much from estrogen what comes to my mental well-being, but it can't get much worse. Yeah, my depression can get worse, but other than that. I'm expecting that my initiative won't go worse, for example, but get better. It might take a while as estrogen needs to be ramped up first. And I know that this is google-diagnosing and might be totally wrong but I understand that I don't have competence so I'm just guessing and taking the guesses critically and asking doctors nicely what I have thought. Even though it doesn't exactly matter anymore if I have that AIS genome or not. AFAIK they will check my hormone levels anyway.
With the invitation to hormone clinic came some papers to fill (with electronic mail system, where you can receive snail mail electronically if sender can send the letters electronically. That was new, usually papers which needs filling come with snail mail :D), survey about my medication and sicknesses which runs in the family, like cancer, and if I want HRT and/or SRS. As well as consent to treatment. With quite hilarious list of things they must tell you before starting treatments as some are irreversible. Half of the list was the reason why I'm going there... But, law requires so they obey. And there was actually one thing I didn't know before! That eating too much estrogen it might get converted to testosterone and nullify (some of) the estrogen.
I'm also so glad that I finally can get rid of my beard. Too bad that they will not remove any other hair with laser there but at least that. I have to pay removal of other hair by myself. I can only hope that IPL will work efficiently enough, as laser in private sector is quite expensive.
And lastly about weight. I saw some facebook post about candy challenge ("I will not eat candy for as many days as this post gets likes") and as that isn't challenge for me as I don't eat candy anymore, I did post about losing weight. That I will lose 100g for every like the post gets. And it got 47, which is quarter of my friends, quite nice. But as that won't be any challenge and I'm planning to lose another 10kg still I thought that let's put that 4,7kg on top of that so my new goal is 65,7kg. I also got myself under 80kg finally, so I have lost bit over 27kg in bit less than a year now. Not too bad, that's half kilogram in a week on average if you calculate for whole year.
But now some sleep, workday tomorrow.