The Invitation
A month without posting again, I need to practice this. Today morning mail came very early and bought nice letter. Invitation to trans-clinic. I will go there in bit over a month, 1.12., to see the psychiatric senior doctor, who leads the clinic, and is different person than the psychiatrist I have talked before in this blog. With the letter came also survey I need to fill. I was also bit surprised that I will see the psychiatrist first, last time I saw their specialized nurse first. That has to have something to do with that I have been there before. I really hope they will use shorter examination period.
Although, now I have one month to practice my voice to the level that I'm able to speak with it more than one or two words and with correct pitch. I have been bit lazy with this, unfortunately. I have practiced the positioning of the thing in my throat while I was lying in bed as you don't have to do so much work against gravity and throat muscles don't have to deal keeping head up and can relax. More (medical) information about the voice projection can be found here.
It's sometimes funny that you don't realize needing something before you get it. I have done three weeks with 3h long work day now and even that exhausts me. I'm wondering how I was even able to do the 7.5h long day before! I have a meeting with my occupational doctor on monday so we'll check the situation then. I think we will raise the daily hours to 50%, so 45 minutes more. As that is more in line how much I really do work, as most of the work is that kind that it would be silly to left it midway and most of them are 1-2 hour long tasks.
I have continued to use skirt in work, and I lost enough weight that I'm able to use corset under the shirt. So I have done that for at least 2 weeks now. And now I can't even think about leaving home without wearing corset, which is bit funny. I have lost now 22kg and I'm not sure when I have mentioned this before. Anyway, progress has happened and I still have ~14kg to go. But I'm way over half way already, which also means that it's getting harder. I really need to pay attention how much I drink water for example. If I don't drink enough, my weight won't move. Might even go up a bit. Especially as I want to be as skinny as possible when I will see the psychiatrist. I can't make it happen faster but I can pay attention that it won't stop. Although my tummy is almost flat already thanks to weight loss and corset.
I ordered two jackets and bras online. I almost laughed when I tried them out. All of them were correct size. And I didn't measure myself for the jackets. One jacket for weather like this (around 0°C), which is very nice and fits snugly. I love it. The zipper is off-center a bit and it is cutted for women so it highlights my very small boobs a bit. Which, combined with this face, raises stares. Which I wasn't expecting but whatever. The other jacket is proper winter jacket and it fits just right as well. And the bras. 85B extra-padded push-ups 😂. Although they interfere a bit with corset so I haven't used them this week at work. I was planning that I will get used to them during the weekend and start using them in work next week. And 80B might be better choice with the corset anyway as it squeezes from that point surprisingly much and the size of my boobs are just middle of 85 A and B. At least I think so as I haven't tested 85A's. I will get used to bras with these in a first place anyway.
When I tried out the clothes I ordered, I started to think about my skeleton, especially with the snug jacket. My shoulders and upper back are narrow for a man, so the jacket fits just right. My arm length is just right for the sleeves. My waist is very womanly with corset, so of course it will fit there but my pelvis is very wide for a man. And with the bras, cups hit the boobs just like they should so my chest isn't any larger than woman of my size. ONLY things, which are larger than average woman of my size, is my hands/palms and feet. Although, my hands aren't exceptionally large for a woman but definitely considered as large. But my shoe size of EU45/US(W)14 is. And most of the shoes end to EU42/US(W)12. Which is bit of a problem. There are beautiful gothic shoes in my size for women but you pretty much have to order them oversees online. And will be hassle if they don't fit. But such is life.
I will try to post more often from now on, and I will post about the visit to the psychiatrist extensively as that is the very point of this blog. Lot has happened even when I thought that almost nothing has.
Although, now I have one month to practice my voice to the level that I'm able to speak with it more than one or two words and with correct pitch. I have been bit lazy with this, unfortunately. I have practiced the positioning of the thing in my throat while I was lying in bed as you don't have to do so much work against gravity and throat muscles don't have to deal keeping head up and can relax. More (medical) information about the voice projection can be found here.
It's sometimes funny that you don't realize needing something before you get it. I have done three weeks with 3h long work day now and even that exhausts me. I'm wondering how I was even able to do the 7.5h long day before! I have a meeting with my occupational doctor on monday so we'll check the situation then. I think we will raise the daily hours to 50%, so 45 minutes more. As that is more in line how much I really do work, as most of the work is that kind that it would be silly to left it midway and most of them are 1-2 hour long tasks.
I have continued to use skirt in work, and I lost enough weight that I'm able to use corset under the shirt. So I have done that for at least 2 weeks now. And now I can't even think about leaving home without wearing corset, which is bit funny. I have lost now 22kg and I'm not sure when I have mentioned this before. Anyway, progress has happened and I still have ~14kg to go. But I'm way over half way already, which also means that it's getting harder. I really need to pay attention how much I drink water for example. If I don't drink enough, my weight won't move. Might even go up a bit. Especially as I want to be as skinny as possible when I will see the psychiatrist. I can't make it happen faster but I can pay attention that it won't stop. Although my tummy is almost flat already thanks to weight loss and corset.
I ordered two jackets and bras online. I almost laughed when I tried them out. All of them were correct size. And I didn't measure myself for the jackets. One jacket for weather like this (around 0°C), which is very nice and fits snugly. I love it. The zipper is off-center a bit and it is cutted for women so it highlights my very small boobs a bit. Which, combined with this face, raises stares. Which I wasn't expecting but whatever. The other jacket is proper winter jacket and it fits just right as well. And the bras. 85B extra-padded push-ups 😂. Although they interfere a bit with corset so I haven't used them this week at work. I was planning that I will get used to them during the weekend and start using them in work next week. And 80B might be better choice with the corset anyway as it squeezes from that point surprisingly much and the size of my boobs are just middle of 85 A and B. At least I think so as I haven't tested 85A's. I will get used to bras with these in a first place anyway.
When I tried out the clothes I ordered, I started to think about my skeleton, especially with the snug jacket. My shoulders and upper back are narrow for a man, so the jacket fits just right. My arm length is just right for the sleeves. My waist is very womanly with corset, so of course it will fit there but my pelvis is very wide for a man. And with the bras, cups hit the boobs just like they should so my chest isn't any larger than woman of my size. ONLY things, which are larger than average woman of my size, is my hands/palms and feet. Although, my hands aren't exceptionally large for a woman but definitely considered as large. But my shoe size of EU45/US(W)14 is. And most of the shoes end to EU42/US(W)12. Which is bit of a problem. There are beautiful gothic shoes in my size for women but you pretty much have to order them oversees online. And will be hassle if they don't fit. But such is life.
I will try to post more often from now on, and I will post about the visit to the psychiatrist extensively as that is the very point of this blog. Lot has happened even when I thought that almost nothing has.