Droplets from the voyage of a trans-woman

 Long time, no post. Not much has happened though. I called to hormone clinic on monday, nurse called back on tuesday and endocrinologists called on wednesday. She said that it's fine to raise hormones back to full dosage, which I did yesterday. She also said that it's impossible to say if I need finasteride, there isn't any blood test they could do (I actually doubt that..), it's up to me if I feel like I need it. So, I just need to make a note how much I lose hair and if it starts to get up, then start finasteride again. The call was kind of ..useless, I'm not sure who the doctor actually was but the way she talked was "yeah, you didn't have anything more important to say?". So, I had half dosage for a week and now full dosage again. The week was really annoying, the hot flashes got very intense and they still were quite constant. "Hey, this is the good stuff! But this is not enough, we want more! *throws tantrum*". Just the past ~30 hours

 Checkup time again! Went to see the specialist nurse and surgeon again. Healing is progressing steadily and my ability to function with it. Surgeon was able to remove all the remaining necrosis, so body should understand now that hey, everything is ok now, no need to swell up everything. I was allowed to start hormones again too! First two weeks with half dosage and then to full, it might be bit too much for the body to jump back to full dosage right away. Thanks to the resume of hormones, I'm feeling teeny tiny bit tipsy. And tired. Tiredness could be just genuine lack of sleep though, I didn't sleep much last night as I have fucked up my sleeping rhythm again. I got some major hot flashes while writing this, so the hormones really are starting to buzz. Gosh, it's finally starting to be over the worst part. I'm also injecting the last anticoagulant, Klexane, today. Which means that I'm back to my normal medication. I will wait for couple of days to sync my meds an

 Oh gosh. It's kinda nice that days are different but it's sometimes bit annoying as well Past couple of days has been really hard for me for some reason. I'm very tired, apathetic, unwilling to do anything. I think I charged my social batteries bit too much on tuesday by going to the checkup AND theatre rehearsals after that. The next day after that was bit of a pain, clit area seeped blood quite a bit (though nothing normal pad couldn't handle) so I kinda overdid it. But apparently charging the battery by actually seeing people activated me enough that being alone, almost tied to the bed because of unpleasant feelings, drained it super fast. And it has been downhill from there. It's hard to go to shower, and get out from there. Struggle to go grocery shopping. I just want to sleep, though I'm not tired so it's just laying in the bed, doing nothing or maybe listening music, sometimes checking discord, telegram, whatsapp, slack and instagram. Those medias ar

 Alright, checkup - done! Everything is proceeding smoothly There was little bit of hassle as the other specialist nurse is sick and the other one is super busy so they tuned the time one hour earlier. It was fine, I was planning to go lunch with one of my best friends (the same one who visited me in hospital) before the appointment but as the time was tuned, I went after. Was just fine though, 1pm isn't super late for lunch yet. We went to Muji, which is japanese ..thing? in Kamppi mall. There's restaurant and all kinds of goods, reminds me a bit of those convenience stores in mangas but fancier and the ingredients they had were very specific. But they had even furnitures! All kinds of goods from Japan. I really need to visit it properly at later date after payday.  The checkup itself was rather interesting. I got on gynecological examination table (first time ever actually in that kind of gynecological examination position, pussy wide open 😂) and the nurse took initial look

Holy heck recovery is interesting. So, some of the texts appeared into omakanta, and I'm too lazy to translate them as 99% of the readers understand finnish anyway. First the text of the department doctor: Hoidon syy Kyseessä 33-vuotias male to female-transsukupuolinen potilas. Edeltävästi yhteisymmärryksessä potilaan kanssa päädytty vaginoplastialeikkaukseen ja toimenpiteeseen liittyvät odotetut hyödyt ja mahdolliset riskit tiedostaen. Suunnitellusti 20.10. vaginoplastia, vulvoplastia, meatoplastia, penektomia ja orkiektomia. Viittaan kohteliaimmin tarkempaan toimenpidekertomukseen. Leikkaus sujunut ongelmitta ilman välittömiä komplikaatioita. Loppuarvio (epikriisi) Osastoseurannassa potilaan vointi leikkauksen jälkeen hyvä. Ollut vuodelevossa ensimmäiseen siteenvaihtoon 26.10. asti. Virtsaputken suulla ollut hematoomaa, muuten leikkausalue ja haavat siistit. Potilas päässyt asteittain mobilisoitumaan, virtsakatetri poistettu 27.10. Klitoriksen hupussa pienellä alueella nekroosia,