Droplets from the voyage of a trans-woman

I'm writing this under TMI section because I want to open a little bit, but it is still mostly my usual mindflow. Just be warned. Past week was actually rather amusing. I have had so many good days in a row now that I feel puzzled. There was only one less good day in the middle but even that was more good day than bad day. I was just exhausted from the trip. The work trip itself went really well, it was good to see people I'm working with. I was also able to do rather long work days on monday and thursday, so even when I had friday off on purpose, I was able to get 20 plus hours, so I had almost normal work week in 100% contract! That's a lot of hours in 4 days. But the hectiness didn't stop there, on thursday we had unit evening. On friday I had appointment with psychologist and after that I went to see my parents. Yesterday was Tracon's recreation day. So we went to play some mini golf and had dinner after that. There happened to be some party of one of the a

It's fascinating how my mind swings work. Today was slow-starting day, I didn't even have alarm clock ringing as it is weekend. After eating breakfast and overthinking everything once more with coffee, I managed to psyche myself up to wash some laundry and do some paper war. But, those services had maintenance break so ended up just chatting with friends. And after I got laundry to dry, I went to work to play Elite: Dangerous as we have VR headset (HTC Vive) there and my colleague brought his HOTAS there as well. So I have spoiled myself with those, that game is so much better with proper flight sticks and in VR. After playing some hours, friend/colleague (=ex-co-husband) sent message that if I was still playing Elite at work and as I was, he paid a visit. After finishing my remaining missions, we went to grab some dinner (in burger king...) and as it was so nice day, I decided to walk home. My friend went with me as his wife was at work at the same side of the city where I

This is mix of HRT update, rambling and whatever. I just had so bad feeling that I had to let it out somewhere. Though I don't even know what should I write. Last month hasn't been one bit easier than previous one. I'm getting exhausted so easily that I wonder how I am even able to do anything at all. Three hour workdays are pretty much maximum for me currently. If I work longer, I'm just laying on a sofa rest of the day or something. I also divorced from my partner. I wasn't able to put enough effort towards it and she was so busy with her life that she didn't have time or energy to keep up the relationship by herself. And relationships aren't like that anyway, they need support from all participating ends. So, our feelings just died and we agreed that we will drop the romantic part away and stay as just friends. It's easier for both. I'm also feeling that I'm not going to be in a relationship for a while, I just don't have enough energ