Droplets from the voyage of a trans-woman

Another rather nice week. Apart from monday, rest of the week has been rather nice. Not especially good days but clearly more sunny than rainy. I have also slept better than in ages, for some reason, which has been really nice. I even remember seeing dreams (though, not what happened in them), which is huge. I haven't had dreams in something like 15 years. So, slowly to the better. I have kept myself busy as I just can't handle whole day without seeing people. It feels so weird. The better I get, the more extrovert I become. And I don't have friend network of an extrovert. Today I went to see my parents and felt down because I had "socializing hungover", but because I haven't seen people enough , not because I have seen them too much. Yesterday was Hypecon, so I saw people but as our studio wasn't advertised and it was bit hidden, not many people found it. And for the same reason I just looked people wandering around, which isn't enough for me. I w

I was bit too busy yesterday (and got stuck later into interesting conversation) so didn't have time to write. Doing it now then. Past week was underlining the fact I'm extrovert. Thursday was public holiday so I took friday as saldo leave, to get 4-day weekend. That friday was major mistake. Being at home whole day passivates me so much that my mood goes through the floor, trying to crawl into the soil. Even though I spent pretty much whole thursday and saturday at work playing Elite: Dangerous with the VR set we have there. But friday was very hard mentally. Fortunately there was some Tracon stuff happening on sunday so that was good reason to leave home for a while. The passive feeling is so numbing. I don't want to read, watch, play or otherwise do anything. So I just start reading manga or book, read it little bit, then put it away if it wasn't interesting enough (those rarely are in that amount of reading). Or play enough to get into the game and then put i